I'm pretty sure I was in love with him before I ever met him. I had been living with his sister for about 7 or 8 months and had heard stories about her wonderful big brother. At that point it was indiscriminate who he went to...me or Emily would have been sufficient. I remember one day we were shopping at Old Navy and as we were walking back to the car, his sister said something about how we would start dating.
I fell in love with the man who built his ex an advent calender for christmas one year...who let his little sister hang out with him and his friends...who fiercely protected his friends, much like I do with mine.
I love him. I do but is that enough if he doesn't want to get married and have babies or even move so I can be close to my family? Will he always be enough for me? I've always wanted the quintessential adult life...a nice house with a dog and a fence, a good job, children and a husband to make dinner for. What if he doesn't want the same things?
I know what you are going to say....
Well why don't you just ask him?
But I have and I get vague answers like "we'll see" and "maybe".
I'm distressed but hopefully Ill figure it out soon.
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